pain: it's both physical & spiritual

had to miss my fluids dynamics lecture today because i had to go down to NDC today to see the dentist. 45 mins, he cleaned up the holes he bored previously and checked upon the 3rd tooth which is still under observation. whatever happends, next month 9th sept, he will do the filling for the initial 2 and decide then if the 3rd requires a root canal. then i'm leaving for my diving trip on that night. damn. that's cutting it real close. according to him, i am supposedly able to dive without much problems.

it's been a day since i made the decision and it hurts. a friend of mine claims that i am a fool to throw away something which means so much to me just because i can't get an answer. another feels that it is about time that i let go. 2 different people, 2 different opinions. would i live to regret this decision? likely. would i repeat this decision if i could go back in time? likely. but as she said, "u n me...always frens." i dun want to be "always frens" only, ok? if i'm harping upon one incident, nobody gives "death stares" to my friends if i holler them to join us if we are only "always frens". previously, she only shows some discomfort when i do holler them to join us. but now, "death stares"? what for? you don't do that if we are only "always frens". then today, 2 of the blackest face were sitting in lecture for Fluids Engineering. till now, i still cannot fanthom why she is there when she is not taking the module this semester.

oh wait a minute. she is in the class. tat's surprising. and she was telling me that she's doing 464 this sem and only 463 next sem. hey, rollback. why am i still so concerned about her ongoings? dumb. stupid. must let go. must let go.