i'd rather

human emotions are such a myraid of complexities. in life, we are often taught that persistence is a key to achieving things. however, in relationships, things are not so. the past year, she was a person who had taken a huge chunk in my life. things between us are not exactly the best but i have never really contemplated ending it all. given a choice, i rather be having a turbulent relationship with her then to have everything smooth but solo. she's really a nice girl but it is time that i woke up from la la land. the decision to drop everything was a really painful one for me to make. i am a very emotional person and since things detiorated between me and others, she has really been a very important person to me. however, given my personality of not being able to stick around as a friend after being rejected as a bf, i do not want to hang around to find out anymore.

I thought some time alone
was what we really needed
you said this time would hurt more than it helps
but I couldn't see that
I thought it was the end
of a beautiful story
and so I left the one I loved at home to be alone
and I tried to find
out if this one thing is true
that I'm nothing without you
I know better now
and I've had a change of heart

I'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else
I'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself
I'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart
I'd rather have the one who holds my heart
I'd Rather by Luther Vandross