lousy slacker, moping idiot

holed myself at home the whole day. did not get anything constructive done. all i did was update my chinese mp3 id3 so that everything will be in chinese. alot more to go. a person without a life would most likely be like me, just stoning away.

she was online around 7pm but did not say hi until 10pm. what to do. she has so much more to do and so many more people to be busy with. this early morning around 5am, i even dropped her a message asking her out. alas no reply. ok, i made a mistake yesterday. i guess i was a bit upset and had mistaken the gal in the photo with her as a guy. sorry. i can't help but feeling things are really spiralling to the end. well...all good things must come to an end. maybe this one is about to fizzle out before it even started? I Am Giving The Dice One Final Roll. If Things Are Not Meant To Be......Well, Here Today Gone Tomorrow

i really miss her and am beginning to be a lousy moping idiot again. our chat on MSN seemed so forced. i really don't know what to do anymore. we work at the same place, separated by 4 floors but we have never met. is it my indecisiveness or her confidence which is wearing me down?