Where Am I?

I always plan for two. No matter what I do, I always plan for two. No matter what I cook, I always cook for two. No matter where I go, I always plan for two. No matter my considerations, I always consider how my actions will affect the other. However, I have to be realistic. There is no two or the other when I am the only one.

Someone once told me to stop thinking for others. If I did that, then I will not be the Alvin I am today. Then again, the Alvin that I am today is always in a state of limbo, never the certainty

For once, I would really like to know what is like to be happy. Happiness that last, not the fleeting moments kind.