always and never

time to close shop. no more things to ponder. 2 years is really stupid to have been spent on someone who has nothing but contempt. alas, fools are not suffered. exams are just round the corner. everybody was right and i was just deluding myself all this while. blind is the fool in a twirl of feelings. i should be an expert in making clean breaks by now. heck, i've done it twice, why not this third time? it just keeps getting easier each time. the first time took 18 months. the second time took 3 months. this third time should be about the same if not faster. woopie! i really hate the "always the best fried but never the boyfriend" tag! hate it hate it hate it! i will not delude myself by thinking that "it is their loss" cause they never lose. NEVER! it's time.