turnover

the year came and went. no point writing anything poignant about it. nothing much occured for me. getting to know Sweetie, graduation, went to new zealand, went to shanghai to visit Sweetie, did two different work, emceed malcolm's wedding. just wished that i could have added gotten a gf to all that. well, one can only hope that tomorrow will be a better day. new year is just another day for me, just a change of date. ah well. time to sleep and wake up next year then. to the one having fun in new york times square, take care.

packing

it is that time of the year when we start packing away the stuff we had gathered through the year as we embrace the beginning of the new year. me? the new year is just another day.

last working day

today is my last working day and i was offered an opportunity to stay on in a permanent position. hmmm.......i would have to consider it well for if i enter it, i have to do well in it. else, returning to what i was trained to be in years later will screw my career path really badly.

new clothes and new toy

bought meself some new clothes and a new toy. after so long, splurged $100+ on new shirts and pants at robinsons. ah well, got voucher and discounts. heez. also manged to get the picoo z for a mere $32 only. cheaper than other places, surprised to find it on discount and members had a further discount some more. hahahaha.

lost chance

i guess i have lost my chance. damn! should have told her when i was in shanghai.

phantom

while having lunch with my new colleague, we struck up a conversation and it made me think. if i do not have the guts to reveal my feelings to Sweetie, i will have nothing at all. but, if i she rejects me, our friendship is all but over. damn if i do, damn if i don't.

rain game

the rain was playing a game with me today. i had just finished washing the clothes and wanted to hang them out for drying. however, when i placed them out, it started drizzling. i quickly brought them in. when it stopped raining later, i looked at the skies and there were no dark clouds nearby. i placed the clothes out to hang again. within moments, it started drizzling again! argggg. by the time i got all the clothes in, it started pouring heavily. i looked at the sky but there were no dark clouds! the sky seems to be playing a game with me.

weird things about santa

seeing how everybody is enjoying the christmas season, i was wondering if there was a flipside to the character known as santa claus. though not entirely accurate but i came out with some wierd ideas which had some sense of reason.

santa claus is an illegal worker. why? because, he is not known to be a citizen of any country yet come christmas season, he is working hard to deliver presents in most countries, not having a work permit whatsoever. you can argue that he is a commercial character but commercial characters all came from somewhere. astro boy came from japan, mickey mouse came from usa even singapore has our very own mr. kiasu! santa claus? to the best of my knowledge, there is no definite country that he came from.

given that he is an illegal worker, he can also be considered an illegal immigrant for when he travels around the world in his sleigh delivering presents, he is crossing borders without going through any immigration checks.

santa claus is also, either a pervert, a voyeur or working for the government in the internal security department or some intelligence agency, depending on which country you are from. how so? for he knows when you are sleeping, he knows when you are awake, he knows when you have been bad or good and he places all this on a list which he checks twice?! if he is not one of the three characters above, then why does he do it?

these ideas can be pretty farfetched but hey, there is some reason to them too. merry christmas everyone!

affection

while watching the mini-series, rome, i noticed that the characters had used the term affection to define their love for their beloved. it got me thinking of the feelings that i have yet to tell Sweetie. the way someone put it to me was, if she was just a friend, I would not have flown all the way to Shanghai to visit her. which is true, moments with Sweetie have always been of joy to me. if only there is someway i can make know to her my feelings and affection for her.

mini christmas gift exchange

had a mini party at work today where we had food and a little gift exchange. last week, each of us were given a card where we wrote down our gift wishes valued under S$20. we then had to label the card with a cartoon character and then we placed them in a box where we took turns picking out another's card. the person i was supposed to buy for had a donald duck character and her wishes, I know it is a gal vecause of the wishes, were either a l'oréal lipstick, a bracelet or a fat belt. there was plenty of laughter as we tried to guess whom the gift was meant for and if the person made the wrong guess, they had to impersonante the cartoon character. hahaha. it was really a fun session. never did anything for christmas for very very long already. i wish i can catch up with Sweetie but she is buzy. haiz. must be patient.

away on holiday

a close friend of mine, who is also a frequent visitor to my blog, Babe, has just taken off from changi. she is on her way to bangkok now to make the connecting flight to LAX for her month long holiday in the US. have a safe and enjoyable trip Babe!

familiar new colleague

a former colleague of mine became my colleague again. hahaha. been trying to prise her away from the evil liar where she was unhappy at with job offers from my current company but her previous manager refused to let her go. she only told me today that she has joined my current company when she had started work on monday. ah well. hahaha.

cold.....brrr.....

man it's cold! it's been raining since sunday, only going down to a drizzle now and then. the monsoon this year has brought the weather down to 23°C. it never felt so cold when i was in shanghai, where it was hovering around 13°C. it must be the wind chill factor. brrr.....

stroll

taking a stroll in the light drizzle helped to put me into a more relaxed mode. work is manageable but staring at the screen the whole day strains the eyes too much. ah......we should all take more walks often. relaxing and also some form of exercise. haha.

appreciation

Falling in love is tiring physically while love with a passion will make one grieve.

A romantic relationship is sometimes like tasting wine.
You must taste the wine carefully in order to appreciate the fragrance.

reliving

sometimes, humans would reminicise about the good times. sometimes, they would think about the situations which have caused them regrets. it is from our past that we learn many lessons which shape our characters. it is also from such incidents when our fears would appear over and over again. just like when you see someone in the streets from far, you would feel uneasy thinking it was someone who had hurt you or had a disagreement with, but when you get closer and realise that you have mistaken the person, you feel so much more relieved.

ICT?!?!?!?!?!

NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I kenna my first dreaded SAF100! Sianz 1 whole. Some more the period is right smack in the middle of open house! ARGGGG! WHY!?!?!?!?!?

WELCOME HOME SWEETIE!

Finally! After a total of 174 days, Sweetie is finally home! Even her return had to be delayed by 2 hours due to flight delay. She just touched down at Changi and will soon be coming out of the Gate area. Anyway, she is finally home, safe and sound, and that is what really matters. Tenderheart has missed you greatly Sweetie!

WELCOME HOME SWEETIE!

Fulfil Your Dreams

I was invited by a friend to attend an event. During the event, the below video was played and I thought it was very meaningful. Although I do not understand a single thing the singer is singing, but the Music Video alone tells alot. Of how we should not put off our dreams and also that no matter how old we are, we should still fulfil our dreams and not live and let live.

The song is Kurumi by Mr.Children for those of you who are curious. Please let the video load fully first before playing the video.



I searched online and there was this other blogger who had provided the Chinese translation of the song. If you are interested, the video at the end of this entry is the same as the one above but it comes with Chinese, Japanese & Korean subtitles. Oh, FYI, the song is not sung by the middle-aged gentlemen but by the youngster (a band member of Mr.Children) who picked up the paper at the end of the Music Video.

喂～ Kurumi
這街道的景色在你的眼中是什麼模樣呢？
現在的我看起來又是怎樣？

喂～ Kurumi
若是旁人的關心也讓你聽起來像挖苦似的
那個時候又該怎麼做才好呢？

只是回想起過去美好的一切
卻讓人的心情更自覺得瀕老
在這樣的生活裡頭
如今 我正要動起來了
因為我不想只做個齒輪而已啊
伴隨希望的衍生而增加的失望
即使如此明天的內心依舊悸動
「究竟會發生什麼事呢？」
試著去想像看看吧

喂～ Kurumi
假使時間的河流會將一切給洗刷帶走的話
那生存這件事就變得再容易不過了

喂～ Kurumi
在那之後我一次也不曾讓眼淚流下來
可是 讓我能夠開懷真心的笑卻也很少

不知在哪裡扣錯了
發覺到的時候才知道多了一個鈕扣
就像這樣地要是能和 某個有多的鈕扣穴的人相遇
讓一切變得有意義就好了
伴隨邂逅的次數而增加的別離
即使如此內心仍因希望而跳動
每當在走過十字路口的時候
難免也會有迷失方向的時候

總是乞望想擁有比眼前更多
為了追求那不變的愛而高歌
於是齒輪不停轉動
超過必要的負擔 讓齒輪一面發出嘎吱的聲響
伴隨希望的衍生而增加的失望
即使如此明天的內心依舊悸動
「究竟會發生什麼事呢？」
試著去想像看看吧
伴隨邂逅的次數而增加的別離
即使如此內心仍因希望而跳動
現在已經不能夠回頭了啊
向前走吧 踏上沒有你的這條路



Day 174

patience

one more day......just one more day......patience is a virtue......come on......come on......

Day 173

glimpse

for a short while this morning, Sweetie came online. she has been in xiamen since saturday and was getting ready to head over to hainan today. eagerly looking forward to her return. soon she will be back in singapore. soon.

Day 172

perm i need perm

stupid cpf came with a letter stating a repayment of $310 per month from next july. haiz. i need my dream job soon. or maybe that perm engineer job. one or the other, i need it!

Day 171

roll over

the grain is carried to the shore by the waves. before it can settle down, it gets pushed again. over and over this repeats itself. soon the grain is dislodged and moved to another region.

often, i have felt like that grain. never belonging, never settling down. people around me just wants to have things done their way and i get pushed around and laughed at. i do not blame these people for my predicament. i just blame myself for not being strong-willed enough to stand my ground, for being too soft. and so i move on but not stopping this culture. till i am strong-willed enough to stop such people, there is no need to put myself at the mercy of their mouths.

Day 170

never knew

What can I do,
To hold you

Now that I know,
I love you

Never found that our hearts felt the same

Until the cold light of day stole our dreams


Day 169

inside

falling for a person is never intentional and never voluntary. it can be at first sight or the person just grows on you, time is never a factor. being with the person is the greatest joy possible. however, we may never get the privillege. even for 2 person in a relationship, they need no be with each other every minute and every second. as long as they have each other in their hearts, be it 1 month, 6 months or longer, it is enough to remain contented.

Day 168

department lunch

the department had their quaterly (i think) departmental lunch today. i got to go too. heez. the lunch was at the coffee house of the grand copthorne waterfront hotel. the food was great. well, i focused on the raw fish alot......and the oysters. hahaha. they had sea bass, salmon and mackerel available. the initial supply of sea bass was nice but the second batch did not seem as nice. hmmm......still good but seem to be of lower quality.anyway, it was a nice place to eat and i enjoyed being there. maybe i will return again someday to eat. dunno how much though, company expense. heez!

Day 167

dream car ride

knocking off work, got 3 female colleagues leave together with me leh! haha. actually 3 of us were hitching a ride from one of the female colleague. my dream car leh! ok lah, not so big lah. i prefer the smaller version one. haha.

Sweetie today got Supplier treat lunch. So nice. But she only eat spagetthi only. Should eat more.

Day 166

almost flooded

had some problems with some requests from australia and almost delayed everything else. manages to finish my work but could not knock off on time. ah well. at least Sweetie knocked off on time. she's coming home soon! heez!

Day 165

float or sink

took over the duties at work on my own today. the workload is vastly different from before. this time working with australians. however, this time, more other routes to work on. even more confusing calculations!

Day 164

dream within a dream

you ever had a dream within a dream? i had a dream today and i dreamt that i was resting and had a nightmare. then i "woke up" but still i was in the initial dream state. i only truly woke up later. really wierd feeling.

Day 163

cleaning

time to purge the hard disk again. got to get it clean to work properly.

Day 162

gap no more

no more gap! no more gap! yeah! hahahaha! ~ouch ouch ouch~

Day 161